The Single Normal-looking Girl

Today we would be meeting for a second time. Not something that I'd anticipated the first time I saw her. There was nothing special about this girl. JN was normal-looking - someone you wouldn't mind having as your girlfriend, but strangely, at the same time, someone you wouldn't go great lengths to attract attention.

I was surprised when another normal-looking guy expressed a certain vague interest about her. He was laborious at his effort of making this second outing a success. So almost one day after our first meeting with JN, L was already making contact with her and making her commit to another day of gathering with the same old guys.

The three of us, much like the three stooges anticipating the same old lover, waited at Mac's. Yes indeed, that day the place was crowded. And the opening of Spiderman 2 did not make it any more bearable. I sat there, thinking why my life had become entangled with these guys. Why are we spending time with a girl who was neither pretty nor excessively rich? What value would this event add to our already dwindling social life?

I don't understand. Because we were capable of better dates. L must be rather strickened with affection to sustain the entire process of getting this very "booked" girl out. As you might already have guessed, this normal-looking girl has a long line of dates waiting for her everyday! What was wrong? Were those guys so hard up they just had to dive into the sea to catch a fish? And grab anything that came to their hands before all oxygen runs out?

Putting myself in such a position makes me feel inferior in terms of maturity of thought.

After the movie, we went opposite to have a cup of coffee each. We chatted aimlessly as I had expected. In fact, I wasn't my usual bubbly self for fear that I might look too happy in the presence of JN. I didn't want JN to think we were single and desperate.

We should all have a little self-respect for ourselves. When at the other end of the road, you can't find the sun rising from the horizon, don't try to imagine the sky brightening; because that will really make the darkness appear more dark.